What do I want to accomplish?

On Sunday, I’m running the Lansing Marathon. I. Am. Terrified.

I have told a few people about how nervous I am, and these are the responses that I’ve received:

-You’re in great shape!
-You’ll be fine.
-You’re an Ironman, you got this.
-You did a 50K. What are you worried about?
-This is a walk in the park for you!

I assure you, none of the above statements are helping to calm my nerves.

I am doing everything I can think of to overcome my fear and distract myself. Pinterest has been useful, as I browse motivational quotes to get me in the right state of mind, remembering that the body can do whatever the mind allows. I am even working towards dedicating every mile to someone. (I am still looking for volunteers for this! So let me know if you’re interested.)

But even with that, I still find myself feeling a bit nauseous about the whole event. Why is that? I am confident that I can finish, but the real question is whether or not I will be strong enough to finish in the fashion that I hope.

And that brings me to face the reality that I’m too scared to even admit what I’m hoping to accomplish. There is a BIG part of me that would like to finish in under 4 hours. (OMGoodness….I just said that out loud.) BUT, I really don’t know if I trained hard enough to make that happen. And, if I allow myself to have that goal, am I going to be devastated if I don’t reach it? Will I fall apart mentally and become a crying, whining, mess of a girl if I’m behind my goal pace? It’s happened before! And I don’t want it to happen again. It’s not a good feeling and I guarantee you that it isn’t good for anyone within a one mile radius of me either!

So, I’ve been taking the easy way out and telling myself (and everyone else) that I just want to set a PR. That means I need to finish in under 4:21. That’s a BIG difference from what my heart is really hoping for.

So, for now, I’m left with a decision to make. How uncomfortable am I willing to be? Surprisingly, I STRONGLY dislike being uncomfortable. Most of my workouts are completed with ease and I rarely allow myself to linger in the area of “I think I might puke” for very long. Sunday’s marathon just might be the time for me to see how far I can push myself…

Just Try.  Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.


Be Yourself

This picture is amazing.

Photo: Be you. 

And the caption is even better. There is nothing I love more than someone who is comfortable in their own skin. Someone who is not afraid to let their true colors shine. Look at that picture again. Who do you think is having the most fun? Yup! It’s that girl that’s doing her own thing.

That’s who I like to think that I am. I’m the girl who’s doing my own thing and loving every second of it. Luckily I have some pretty amazing friends who are just as crazy, because even though it’s fantastic to be your own unique self, it’s even better when you find friends that cheer you on and join you in your craziness.

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This is another picture that I love. You have to look a little closer to see how out of place we look, but this picture was taken at about the mile 15 aid station of our 50K in the mountains of Vermont. There’s no question in my mind who was having the most fun at this race. It was us! Did we look a little out of place with our matching pink shirts? You bet. Did we mind? Not one bit.

When in doubt…be yourself. Everyone else is already taken.

Sparkle. Pounce. Be you.