I Was Born in a Small Town

Not many people are familiar with the small town where I grew up. Often, when I describe it to people, I say that it’s in the middle of a corn field. Which, although not completely accurate, does paint a pretty good picture of the surrounding areas.

Growing up in St.Johns, Michigan, I experienced all of the annoyances of small town life. Everyone knows everyone. Which means that everyone is constantly in everyone else’s business. Secrets are hard to keep in small towns. And, like many people who grew up there, once I graduated high school, I was ready to get out of there and go away to college.

Well, unlike my siblings, I went away for college and never moved back to St. Johns.

It wasn’t until I graduated college, found a job, got married, and settled into a new town, that my heart began to long for all of the things that I thought I hated about my little hometown. Every time I went to the grocery store or out to eat, I would look around for a familiar face. I was lonely, and missed my community where everyone knew who I was.

Fast forward 19 years (Eeeeeek!)….

I have finally settled into my new small town, but I am so incredibly thankful for the hometown where I was raised.

Last weekend, my mom, sister, and I held a St. Johns High School alumni basketball game fundraiser for the Leukemia Lymphoma Society, for my Boston Marathon Team in Training page. We advertised for the event on Facebook, recruited as many people as we could to play, my mom asked the middle school dance team to perform, and she wrote an article about the event for our local newspaper. But still, I felt really anxious about what kind of a turnout we would have for the event.

The morning of the game I posted one last update on Facebook asking who would be there….not many people responded. I honestly felt a little sick with worry that the stands would be empty and all of the players that committed to playing wouldn’t show up.

I should have known better. Small towns are loyal to their own. And, even though I haven’t lived in that small town for 19 years, most of my family does still live there, and it will always be my hometown.

The turnout was absolutely overwhelming. Everything came together perfectly, from my brother singing the National Anthem, to plenty of players showing up and each team having a coach, to the refs, the score table, the dance team….ALL OF IT! It was such a fun night.

My amazing mom, the SJHS Athletic Director Chris Ervin, (who was a HUGE part of making this happen), and his son Austin, working the score table.
The women’s alumni game participants and coaches.
The men’s alumni game participants and coaches.
My sisters, Tanna on the left, and Rondi on the right.
The bench during halftime entertainment.
The SJMS dance team performing at half time of the women’s game.

Honestly, I couldn’t have imagined this fundraiser going any better. With the support of my hometown, we raised over $2300 for the Leukemia Lymphoma Society! My heart is bursting with pride from bring from the small town of St. Johns, MI. The love I felt during that fundraiser is hard to match.

Thank you to everyone that was a part of such a special event. I am truly humbled and overwhelmed by the support.

Proud of my small town.


It Feels Good

This morning, as I was about to walk out the door for work, I got a text message saying that the school where I teach didn’t have power. No power. No school.

It honestly felt like a Christmas miracle, in March.

I quickly began to make a mental list of all of the tasks I could accomplish after the boys left for school. Instantly, the list in my head grew longer than the hours in the day, so I prioritized what was most important to me, sent out a couple text messages, and made a plan that looked something like this:

  1. Grocery shop for lasagna ingredients to take make and deliver dinner to a friend who “just” had a baby (4 weeks ago…) and get ingredients for an appetizer for an LLS fundraiser that a friend is hosting for me on Friday.
  2. Run 8 miles and do the strength workout I skipped yesterday.
  3. Make the lasagna and maybe some cookies.
  4. Visit my friend and her sweet new baby girl.
  5. Pick boys up from school.

At 7:45, just as my husband was heading out the door to take my boys to school, he said, “I have some errands I need you to run for me today.”


I was instantly annoyed. I didn’t have time to get all of MY stuff done, let alone his stuff too! But I listened to the list of things he needed me to do, and grumbled an “okay”, while inwardly growing more frustrated.

By 8:15, I was out the door and on my way to the grocery store. And of course, as soon as I started to drive away, my “CHANGE ENGINE OIL” alert reminded me that I’ve been overdo for an oil change for about 2 weeks. DANG IT! I absolutely loathe getting my oil changed. It always takes SO long and just seems like a huge waste of time. But, I knew it had to be done, so I headed there first.

Upon arriving, I was told it would be about 45 minutes before my car was done. I headed to the waiting area to stew over the amount of time that was going to be wasted and wondered if there was any way I was going to get everything done today…when all of a sudden it hit me that I was right next to a great running trail! And, per usual when setting out to run errands,  I was wearing all of the necessities to go running! I quickly went and notified the worker that I’d be back in 45 minutes, and I headed out the door for a run.

It. Was. Awesome.

The weather was perfect. The trail was empty, except for me and my thoughts. And I had time to really think about how I was spending my miracle “me” day. Often, when I have a “me” day, that’s all that I focus on. Myself. And yes, those are important sometimes.  But I was so happy to have a day planned that didn’t just focus on me. I couldn’t wait to finally meet my friend’s precious baby girl, and I was so glad to have the time to make her dinner too.

And then I started thinking about the few things that my husband had asked me to do for him, and I realized that I was being completely selfish with my internal temper tantrum. I thought about how incredible it would be if I was feeling overwhelmed and someone else was able to take some things off of MY “to do” list for me. And at that moment, I felt happy to be able to help out. My “me” day was about me making other peoples’ days better. And that felt pretty great.

I finished my run, completely refreshed and ready to tackle my day…again…and in a much better mood. (It really is amazing what a good run does for you!)

Somehow, I managed to get everything done, besides making cookies and doing my strength workout. And, just as I was rushing out the door to get to my friend’s house, the UPS man pulled in the driveway with a delivery.

And my heart was so happy.

I received this Leukemia Lymphoma Society hoodie for raising over $15,000 for cancer research. 

It sure does feel good to do good.


It’s Hard To See

I really, really, really dislike fog.

I prefer being able to see what’s in front of me and knowing what’s ahead. But when it’s really foggy, that’s not possible. Instead, I’m left moving at a slower pace, being quite cautious of what I might encounter.

So, the last few days have been less than ideal in my world, as far as the weather goes. The thick fog has not lifted for 3 days. Yes. Three days straight of not being able to see much of anything besides pure gloom and dreariness.

Luckily, the temperatures were warm enough (49 degrees!) to motivate me to do my Saturday run outside. But it was a real struggle. I even text my sister beforehand telling her that I didn’t think I was even going to try and do a pace run because I was feeling so down and unmotivated. But, I put one foot in front of the other and got my run done at a much faster pace than I had planned! I still didn’t love the fog, but it did make for a cool picture and the fresh air felt good for my soul.

Enter today.

I had checked the weather and it was supposed to be partly cloudy with a fog advisory until 10 AM. Finn and I had plans to head over to Stony Creek so he could roller blade with me while I ran the 6 mile loop. I was really looking forward to it! Then, I checked the weather again and the fog advisory was extended to noon. So we decided we wouldn’t head to the park straight from church. Instead, we’d come home first, eat lunch, wait for the fog to clear, then head out for our fun.

But instead of the fog clearing, the fog advisory got extended a couple more times, and it is currently in effect until 10 AM TOMORROW morning. (Insert loud noises and angry, angry faces.)

For a little bit, Finn and I actually thought about skipping our whole outing all together. Looking out the window was just so depressing and neither of us really wanted to go out in the fog. Thank goodness we shook off our disappointment in the weather and went anyway.

Finn and I making our way around the 6 mile loop at Stony Creek in the fog.
Because goofy pictures are more fun…

We had an awesome time. And took a lot of breaks to snap pictures and relax and enjoy the views.

I sure do love pine needles.

But there were also times on our journey where we really couldn’t see very far ahead of us and Finn was a little nervous. And of course, since I really dislike fog and it creeps me out, I felt exactly the same way. But, instead of showing that fear, I assured him that everything was going to be fine and I held his hand tight until the fog eased up a bit.

And that, my friends, is what we all need to do right now. In our world at this moment, it’s very hard to see. It’s hard to see the good. It’s hard to see how anyone could think that hate and anger and violence could be the solution to anything. It’s hard to see how we’re going to get ourselves out of this mess and back to a world where our words and our actions are full of kindness and empathy and a concern for the well being of those around us.

But, until this fog lifts, we really do need to stop showing fear, start showing love, grab a hold of someone’s hand, and assure each other that everything is going to be okay.

Love Will Win.


Give Credit…

Every year around this time, I spend a lot of time reflecting on the previous year and mapping out my plans for the coming year. According to my Facebook “memories”, I generally sign up for the majority of my races sometime between Christmas and the first week of the New Year. For me, this helps me find the motivation to get back on track after a month or so of indulging in all of the goodness of the holidays and taking a break from my usual training schedule.

This year was no different. Over the last couple of weeks I have done a lot of reflecting on things I can do to be a better version of myself in 2017. And, one of the things I’ve realized is that I need to work harder to give credit where credit is due.

Each and every day, I work hard to live life to the fullest. But, what I often neglect to mention is that I wouldn’t do a lot of the stuff I do without being inspired and motivated by the people around me. So, this year I’m making it my goal to show more gratitude and make sure people know when they have helped me out, in big ways and in small ways.

For example, when I see fitness posts on Facebook, I generally have one of two thoughts, depending on my mood. First, I might think, “Good for them. That’s awesome that they are getting/staying in shape. They look amazing and so happy!” Or, if I’m feeling a bit crabby, I might see a post and think something like, “Must be nice to not work full time and be able to work out whenever you want…” Or, “Do they do anything besides workout?!”  I know, I know…harsh. But, that’s the truth of it. HOWEVER, regardless of my instinctive reaction to said post, whenever I see fitness posts it ALWAYS gives me a little bit of motivation to get my own workouts done. And, I am incredibly thankful for that! Even if I’m crabby and jealous for a minute…I’m always thankful in the end.

Another thing I’m super thankful for is the fact that my sister is just as crazy as me and immediately signed on to my idea to run a marathon in all 50 states! Seriously. There’s ZERO chance I would be working towards that goal by myself. AND, to make it even better, my other sister and my parents are on board to be our amazing support crew! I definitely do not thank them enough for these things and many more. Without them, this goal would not exist.

Next, I am soooooo incredibly thankful for everyone that has and continues to support me on my journey to the Boston Marathon with my fundraising for the Leukemia Lymphoma Society! From the very beginning when I decided I was going to apply for a charity spot, to today when I have nearly $6,000 already raised, I have been humbled by the amount of support that I have been given. There are no words that can express how truly grateful I am for every single encouraging word that has been spoken, texted, or posted and every single cent that has been donated. And all of the effort that people are making to not only attend my fundraisers, but to help me organize them is amazing. From people signing up to play in the alumni basketball game, to registering to bowl, to helping me get items donated for the silent auction…the list seriously goes on and on!!! There is ZERO chance I could do this on my own. I have SO many people to give credit to for helping me make this dream a reality!

Another HUGE goal that I have for 2017 is to finish a 100 mile ultra marathon. Although this is something I have been thinking about for a couple of years, I never really had the confidence to give it a try until a close friend of mine decided that she was going to run it. And then, just like that, my mind was made up, and I decided this was the year I was going to give it a try. Because big, scary things are a little less scary when you’re not alone. And I’m really lucky to have some amazing friends in my life who do incredible things and inspire me to go out of my comfort zone.

I could go on and on with the list of people who deserve more credit for the roles they play in my life. But in the end, what it boils down to is that I realize more and more every day just how much I appreciate everyone who helps me get through this life and inspires me to make it great. And, this year I’m going to try really hard to show all of you that appreciation and give you much deserved credit!

Here’s to an amazing 2017!

Make it great!


I Really Don’t Have Things Under Control

Today at work, a colleague said to me, “I feel like Kendra today!” My response was, “What does that mean?” He said, “Ya know, like I’ve got everything under control.”

I laughed and told him that in the last few weeks, the thought that has crossed my mind most often is this: “Kendra, you really need to get your ______ together.”

I’m not kidding. Every year at this time, I start to feel pretty overwhelmed with everything that’s going on. And every year, my list of responsibilities seems to grow longer and longer. And I’m not good at juggling all of it. I’m really not.

But, apparently, what I am good at is making it look like I’ve got everything under control. I think mostly what I’m good at is putting on a smile, regardless of how I’m feeling. However, what I’m really feeling is this….

  • How am I going to plan and organize all of the fundraisers I need to in order to raise $14,000 for the Leukemia Lymphoma Society before the Boston Marathon?! When am I going to find the time to ask for silent auction donations? Who will donate? How does all of this even work?! I really need to get on this….
  • I really need to write all of the thank you notes to all of my awesome friends and family that have already donated! How do I even get all of their addresses? 
  • We really need to finish moving everything into our house and getting situated…
  • I really need to get my Christmas cards…and then address them and send them out…
  • Who do I need to get Christmas gifts for? I should make a list. And then I should probably start shopping.
  • Why yes, I would LOVE to plan and organize my son’s school Christmas party. Yes, I definitely have time for that. No problem.
  • And I would LOVE to coach basketball. Yup. Plenty of time for that, right?
  • I really need to remember to move the Elf every day this year. No more slacking. I can do this.
  • And I would really like to find an opportunity for the boys and I to volunteer at a soup kitchen or something similar before Christmas….
  • Oh, didn’t I already pay that bill? No? It’s late? Sigh….
  • We’re out of sandwich bags? And Klennex? Good thing we have aluminum foil and toilet paper!
  • When am I going to get that data analysis done? I really need to start working on that each night when the boys go to bed. But I really don’t want to…
  • I have to find time to write another blog. It’s been way too long…
  • I need to get back into running. Yes. That will help my stress level!!
Those are the thoughts that are going through my mind at any given moment of every day. It’s a lot to handle. But…
That is it. 
My heart is full. And that means my responsibilities will always be many. Because I have people to take care of and work to do to make this world a better place for them. And…I won’t always get it  right. But I will never stop trying.
Sparkle.Pounce.Let Your Heart Lead You.

Adulting Gets Easier, Right?

Life can be pretty frustrating sometimes. 

As I get closer and closer to this thing called “middle age”, I keep thinking that I should be improving in the area of “adulting.” It should surely be getting easier with the more practice that I have. But that does not seem to be the case. 

Instead, life just keeps getting more and more complicated. Responsibilities at work keep intensifying, and parenting feels like it matters more and more with every passing second. I mean, they are REALLLLLLY watching and listening now. And I am pretty sure that every decision I make regarding their well being is going to make or break their chances of growing to be decent humans. 

With that in mind, I tend to think about situations much more before I react to them than I used to. (Or at least I try to think things through before I react…) And that was the case yesterday when I found out that I was not, in fact, one of the 6 parents that was chosen to volunteer at my son’s Halloween party at school today. 

Over the last month I have emailed back and forth a few times with his teacher, letting her know that I wanted to volunteer. She told me that she added my name to the list, and that the head party planner would be contacting me. Much to my surprise, no one contacted me. So last week I spoke to another parent and asked her to have the “room parent” let me know what I needed to bring for the Halloween party. She sent me a text stating that I wasn’t on the list that the teacher had given her, and I would not be able to attend the party because they already had their max of 6 parents volunteering.

Deep breathes.

I decided to wait approximately 12 hours before emailing the teacher to find out what the problem was, as I was sure there was a misunderstanding since she had told me I was on the list. She responded right away that she had passed along my info, but there must have already been 6 volunteers and she was sorry, but…. 

And that was that.

I am pretty sure that a few years ago I would have called the teacher, or called the principal and tried really hard to make things go my way, without thinking of the effect that could potentially have on my son’s relationship with his teacher. And, believe me, I wanted to throw a little fit and tell people how ridiculous and unfair that was. But, instead, I thought about it. I thought realllllly hard about it. And realized that no good was going to come out of me doing that.

So, I went and watched my boys in their school parade, and then, I left. And spent the next hour doing this…

And when the boys got home I had them tell me all about their parties and all of the fun games they played and snacks they ate.
Then I showed them pictures from my bike ride. And they thought that was pretty cool.
And right at that moment I knew that I had made the right choice. Sometimes you just have to let it go. Because they are watching and listening and learning. 
Sparkle.Pounce.Be The Example. 

My Stop Button Is Broke


The “STOP” button on my treadmill decided to quit. I noticed it during a run earlier this week when my phone rang mid-run, so I hit the stop button and grabbed my phone, only to realize that the speed of the treadmill didn’t change.
This was somewhat annoying, but not the end of the world.
Then, tonight, I hopped on the treadmill to do a 35 minute tempo run, where I would gradually increase my speed to an uncomfortable pace, then increase it some more, and some more, and then work my way back down to a less torturous speed. As soon as I stepped onto the treadmill, I remembered that the stop button wasn’t working earlier in the week. So I started it up and hit stop, just to see if maybe it was back to functioning. It was not.
Now, the broken stop button DID seem like the end of the world. I panicked a little thinking, “What if I need to take a quick break during this run? I don’t want to have to pull the plug. UGH! I cannot stop!”
My husband happened to be down in the garage when I realized that the button was definitely not working, so I explained the situation, telling him that the stop button didn’t work and there was no way to stop during my run other than pulling the plug and wiping out all of my distance and time information. His response? “Well, don’t you think that’s a sign?”
Me: “A sign of what?”
Husband: “That you shouldn’t stop…”
And, that was that. He was right. I shouldn’t stop. I wouldn’t stop. And I didn’t stop. Finished up that tempo run a sweaty mess with 4.25 more miles in the books. And I felt proud.
Sometimes we need that extra little push to keep us going. Something that kicks our butt a little in the right direction and forces us to not stop, to not give up on what we want. And to keep fighting for it, no matter how many times we have fallen short in the past.
Because as these pictures prove, sometimes what we think is a failure, turns into something pretty great.
My “successful” post-run jumping pic.
And my jumping "fail" where I was pretty positive that my dog was going to destroy my phone. But clearly, this is the better picture :)
And my jumping “fail” where I was pretty positive that my dog was going to destroy my phone. But clearly, this is the better picture 🙂
Sparkle.Pounce.Don’t Stop.

Why Does It Have to Be So hard?

Lately, I feel like I’m spending a lot of time trying to play catch up and just wondering when everything is going to slow down a bit.  The beginning of the school year is always a bit overwhelming, but I generally find my groove and things slow down. This year, that hasn’t happened yet and I honestly can’t figure out when or IF it’s actually going to happen.

At home, I’m nearly 8 months into living in the upstairs of my garage, where I can literally reach the refrigerator from my bed, and the only way to leave “the room” is to go in the bathroom close the door. 

Last week when I went to put on a pair of boots that I hadn’t worn since last spring, this is what I found…

That, my friends, is dog food.  And, I can assure you that it was not placed there by my dog, but rather a smart little mouse that’s preparing for winter.

I’m on day number 6 of my husband being out of town, and on morning number one of that, I was awoken at 4:15 AM to the sound of my dog vomiting. Thank goodness she was right next to me in my tiny space so I could jump out of bed and rush her downstairs and outside! (Insert sarcasm.) Seriously though, single momming is hard. 
In my running life, I have managed to run two times since the marathon. I decided I wasn’t going to run until I actually missed it. Well, that finally happened! And I’m retraining myself to recognize that when I am exhausted and stressed out, the best way for me to deal with that is to go for a run.
Last week, my little sister finally received her confirmation email that she was accepted into the Boston Marathon!!! Woot! Woot! I am SO SO SO happy for her!
Since my decision to apply to some charities and try and earn an entry into the 2017 Boston Marathon as a charity runner, I have learned that that task is extremely difficult. Thousands and thousands of runners apply, and thousands are turned down. The one person I know that has run for charity was one of only seven people chosen for her charity and there were more than 600 applicants. She was accepted after having to do three phone interviews and had to raise over $10,000.
It has been over two weeks since I put in my application to run for the Leukemia Lymphoma Society and I haven’t heard anything back yet. Not a peep. 
2016 has definitely been my year to learn patience and to roll with the punches. 
This is my life.
And really, it’s pretty great. I can whine and complain about it, but what good is that? There are plenty of people out there being negative, and I have decided that’s not how I want to be.
For October, I decided to make myself a little challenge to turn the month into “Act-ober” and do at least one random act of kindness every day. It’s only day 3, but so far I have found things to do each day that have brought a bit of happiness to others, and of course, made me smile too.  
Life is hard people. But it can be a little bit easier if we take less time to focus on our own problems and more time to think about how we can make life a little better for those around us.
Sparkle.Pounce.Spread the Love.

Make It Count

I love running. I really do. But I also really, really look forward to taking a break from running after every marathon. Experts say that you’re supposed to take at least a full two weeks off from running following a full marathon, and I take that very seriously. And I enjoy every second of not running during that time.

During this two week break, I took the first week off completely. I didn’t do any type of physical activity. But during the second week, I started my at home strength workouts back up and went mountain biking three times!! 

Me on my favorite trails at Addison Oaks Park. 
Holding a plank for one of my 20 minute strength workouts in my backyard. 
I have embraced the change of seasons, and with that, a change of routine. It has been awesome. So refreshing, and exactly what I needed after soooooo much running this year. Honestly, after that last marathon and my health stuff, I was ready to hang up my running shoes and just take a break for a while.
And then, I went back to the doctor last week. Ya see, the symptoms that I had, that led me to getting a colonoscopy, are triggered by intense running. So, now that I’m not running hard, or at all, my symptoms are gone. In my mind, I was thinking I was pretty much home free until I decide I want to really work at my running again (which I’m not planning on doing any time soon…). But, the doctor was not of the same mindset. He wants to get this figured out with a definitive diagnosis…
Imagine this conversation:
Doctor: We need to do another colonoscopy when the symptoms are occurring.
Kendra: (Insert nervous joking) So you’re saying you want me to pick my running back up to an intense enough level that I cause these symptoms again?
Doctor: Well, yes. We need a diagnosis. And that’s the only way to get one.
Did I mention I was ready to hang my shoes up for a while?! 
So, in true Kendra fashion, I went ahead and registered for another marathon. Because if I have to start running again, you better believe I’m going to be working towards that 50 marathons in 50 states goal! Indiana…here we come!
Sparkle.Pounce.Make It Count.

Turns Out I’m Not Invincible

Sometimes we decide to do things that we said we would never ever do. 

On Sunday, I ran my second marathon of 2016. I tried for the second time in 2016 to qualify for the Boston Marathon. And, for my second time in 2016, failed to accomplish that goal.

I worked really hard, all year. Really, really hard. For my second try at my BQ, I even hired a running coach and tried an entirely new training plan. But my body just didn’t cooperate…again.

Through my second round of training, I started having some health issues. I wasn’t feeling well after a lot of my workouts and I was left weak, nauseous, and not having much of an appetite. In addition, I was having bowel issues (TMI….I know, I know…) that, after muuuuuuch pressure from my husband, my coach, and my sister, landed me at the doctor’s office. 

Turns out my doctor wasn’t thrilled with my symptoms either, and he ordered some tests, including a colonoscopy. And let me assure you, if anyone tells you that the prep for one of those isn’t that bad, they are lying. It. Was. Awful. I will spare you the details, but just imagine having the stomach flu, and then multiply how awful that is by about 1 million. Yes. It’s that bad. 

Anyway, that was about a week and a half before my marathon. Once that was over and my blood work came back normal, I felt confident that I could just take it easy, get lots of rest, and be ready to rock that race. 

Then, the Friday before the marathon, I got home from work, grabbed the mail, and opened a letter stating that the polyp they had removed during my colonoscopy was precancerous and I would need to come back every 3 years to have the procedure. 

This news hit me hard. I’m 36 years old. And healthy. I’M STINKING HEALTHY!!! And cancer was trying to grow in my body. 

I felt such a mixture of sadness that it had even existed and relief that they found and removed it. I was kind of a mess. 

And 15 hours later, I was in the car headed to Pennsylvania with my sisters to run a marathon. 

I had approached this marathon differently by keeping it under the radar. That really helped me to not feel so much pressure about getting my BQ. And the day before the race, I felt pretty good.

Fast forward to during the race, and that was a different story. I was able to keep up my pace for only about the first 6 miles. Then, my body convinced my mind that it wasn’t capable of running that fast. As I tried to hold that pace, I felt weak and dizzy and was pretty certain I would not be able to cross the finish line at all if I didn’t slow down. So that’s what I did. I slowed down. And then I slowed down some more. And, once again, I just wanted it to be over. It was so hard. I just wanted someone by my side to convince me that I could finish. 

Luckily, my sister Rondi got the news that I wasn’t having a good run, and she waited for me at the 13 mile mark. We jogged, shuffled, walked, nearly cried, laughed, and limped our way across the finish line to cross Pennsylvania off our list towards our goal of 50 marathons in 50 states (3 down!). 

Finally…the finish line!

Me, Rondi, and Tanna, our super sister support crew!!
And, of course, my amazing parents made the trip to cheer us on.
During that race, I was full of so many emotions. I was extremely disappointed that all of my hard work had not resulted in a finishing time that would get me to the Boston Marathon with my sister (who qualified back in May). And I was grateful that my health issues had led me to having a procedure that got rid of precancerous cells in my body. But I was also left with the realization that I may not actually have 50 more years on this earth to accomplish all of the goals that are on my bucket list.
And that is where I sit today, preparing to do something that I said I would never do. 
I want with all of my heart, to run the Boston Marathon with my sister. She will be running it in April of 2017. So…I am going to apply for a charity spot and try to run it with her for a charity. And THAT, is what I said I would never do. I just never understood how anyone would be satisfied with running the Boston Marathon without really “earning” it. But, I sit here today thinking that if I don’t try my best to do everything I can to run it with her next year, I may never have another chance to run it with her. Because we just never know what life is going to hand us.
There’s definitely no guarantee that I will be chosen by a charity to run in Boston in April. And if I am chosen, it’s going to take a lot of hard work to raise the money I need to reach that goal. But it will be worth it.
And, God willing, some time down the road I will get to run Boston the way I want to run Boston. With a qualifying time that earns me that position. Then I can finally be done with Boston for good and cross it off that bucket list with a permanent marker.
Sparkle.Pounce.Do What It Takes.